Birth Knot: Turning Topside

Birth Knot Cord

To prepare for child birth, my husband and I took a 6 week Lamaze course. We also discussed with my OBGYN al of our wishes and she was wonderful and on board. We told her that I really did not want to be induced if at all possible and she said that as long and every one was healthy and safe she felt comfortable letting me go to 42 weeks. I told her that I would really like to avoid have an IV with fluids or medication if possible and she agreed. I had the most perfect and pleasant pregnancy anyone could ask for. I went in for my 40 week appointment and Millie was right in place and I was dilated to a 2. I discussed with my OB that maybe if there was no change at 41 weeks she could strip my membranes to potentially help induce labor in order to avoid being induced the following week. I had already been doing everything I had heard could help induce labor for a couple weeks such as walking 2-3 miles a day, eating spicy food, etc. 

I went in for my 41 week appointment and I was still dilated to a 2 but when she was checking me and stripping my membranes she noticed that Mille was breech. We went for an US to make sure and sure enough that little stinker had completely flipped and her little bottom was down. I discussed with my doc the likelihood of her flipping again and options to help her get back into position. She looked at my US to see how much amniotic fluid I had left and I had very very little. She said that she could try inversion but this late in my pregnancy it would be very unlikely that she would be able to move her back. She said that she would absolutely be willing to try it if I wanted her to. I discussed risks with her and she said that this late there is an increased likelihood that my placenta could tear and her cord getting tangled and wrapped around her. After prayer and discussing it with Jeremy we decided that it wasn't worth the risk. I was then scheduled for a c section the next morning. 

I was completely devastated! I felt like it was a sort of right of passage for a woman to be able to give birth naturally and I felt like I was out of control. My sweet husband reminded me that The Lord is completely in control and has been from the beginning and He has great plans for our family. I was scared and nervous and didn't get much sleep that night but I went in the next morning for my c section and I have to admit that while it was not how I had planned at all, it was truly a beautiful experience. The staff was incredibly gently and supportive and still gave me a sense of autonomy in a situation where I felt I had little to no control. I had the opportunity to speak with the anesthesiologist prior to my surgery and told him that I really did not want any medication that was not completely necessary and did not want anything that would make me drowsy and I really wanted to remember the whole day. He was extremely sweet and respectful of my wishes. It was such an amazing experience and while it was not what I had planned it resulted in the most beautiful baby girl and that was the most important thing to Jeremy and I. 

Thinking forward for future births, I would absolutely consider a VBAC and I have already discussed it with my OB who said that she would feel completely comfortable with me having one. Babies are such a gift and each one has such a unique story. No birth is the same and it is just the beginning to the unique life that The Lord has laid out for each person.